I have always been involved with social media. I remember I created a myspace that connected me with a lot of my friends who I usually do not see on a daily basis. Then I remembered creating xanga which allowed me to blog and rant about things while allowing followers to read a bit of what's on my mind. Then I joined blogger because xanga disappeared. Then as this whole social media progressed my involved as well progressed. Facebook was finally a part of my life and at first it was just a way to connect to old friends from high school and to keep in touch with my college friends. But I didn't truly dive into the whole social media until I got my first smart phone, my iphone. Oh that started the downward spiral of my addiction.
Yes addiction, it may seem like a strong word to use for a social media that only allows me to share my pictures and activities that I do to those who follow me which are my friends and family since I have my FB on private setting. And honestly as a whole it's not really that bad. Having a FB account helped me interact with various people who I usually do not, find people who I have lost contact with, and rejoice with great news that people post. So in all reality having a FB can be a great thing. And I say "can" because it all depends on how much of it is a part of your life.
Having a smart phone with an app and a notification ability has caused me to constantly check my phone. And since I always have my phone, I found myself always on FB. I would be on vacation with my family and checking FB. We would be looking around the Colosseum and I found myself checking FB. We're having dinner as a family and I found myself checking FB. I wouldn't admit how much FB was consuming my life and time. Yes FB helped me stay in contact with people I usually do not talk to, yes it allowed our family to see the girls grow up and it was a great venue to contact people...but it was something that became an idol. The first thing I would do when my alarm rang was check FB...at I knew that I had to do something.
So I decided to step away from FB for this month. And it was this decision that exposed my heart. It has only been 9 days since I stepped away from FB and I could feel myself gravitating typing out facebook on safari since I deleted the app from my phone. It's only been 9 days and there has been countless times I'm so tempted to check FB. My heart was crying out...my idol was being revealed and it's been great to finally destroy this idol. I need to make sure that my perspective on FB changes within this month so when I finally go back to FB, I wouldn't have a hold on me and control or consume my time. It's so funny how subtle it was that this idol was created. I didn't even think it was possible but that's how it goes, sometimes things that are not necessarily wrong starts to consume our lives and we do not realize how much we allowed it to take a hold of us.
I pray that other FB users are more aware of their times and their usage on FB. That they do not allow it to consume their time and take away from other things that are more important.
Friday, August 29, 2014
It's been a while since I've been in this predicament. A crossroad in my life that I have to make a willing decision for my life. I remember when I was in high school, everything was decided for me. What classes to take, what high school to go to, and even a bit if who my friends would be (the classes you have will determine a lot of who your friends are). Then senior year came and I thought I had to make a decision on where to go to college, but honestly that was pretty made for me too bc I only got in two colleges and I picked the one that was in the OC area (love love the OC).
Then I had to pick a major and honestly that's when I started to understand what "make a decision" meant. I came in as a psych major and after my first quarter I knew that the major I was in was not what I wanted in life. So I changed bc I thought I had a path to what I wanted to do in my life. I thought that I knew what I wanted my career to be when I grew up and I made all possible decisions based on that goal...my career in this society.
I did interns, took classes, and even went to graduate school for my career. My whole life was all about achieving that career that I thought about since high school. Then a crossroad came.
I got married, had kids right away and I had to decide if I should put my career on hold and stay home or if I should continue to pursue my career? And of course I could have done both, my career and raise my kids as well, a lot of moms do it, but I knew myself. I knew how my selfishness is and how I would ultimately put my career above my family and home so we as a family decided for me to stay home. Do I regret it? Do I think I lost 7 years of my life bc I wasn't in my career? Honestly I don't and I wouldn't change it. But now I'm at another crossroads.
Girls are both in school, I have my masters degree now, and I have a lot of free time...should I pursue my career now? After much prayer and contemplation I realized that my goal and career has changed within the 7 years. I realized that being a wife and mom is my goal and career. I realized that everything I worked for in school and life intertwined with where I am now. Can I work outside of the home? Yes I can. The question is do I want to? God gave me this awesome quote from Louie Giglio and he said, "Whenever you say yes to something, there is less of you for something else. Make sure your yes is worth the less."
The girls just started school and I need to figure what that means for our family. I want to be involved in their school life as well and be able to volunteer and go to their field trips. So for now I don't think working outside of the home is worth the less for me. And I'm completely happy and at peace with this decision.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
The first time I was an official staff for CFBC was when a now 21 year old girl was 5 years old at that time. I still remember not knowing what I was doing and me and my assistant would just get lost during the day. Every year when summer would come around there I would be volunteering my time to serve, taking a week off from work so I can serve and getting excited to serve. I've experienced three different directors, seen many many teachers leave and witnessed a lot of ppl stepping up.
I remembered when majority of the teachers were the adults and then it transitioned to young adults and finally many college and youth people. God has allowed me to be part of vbs for many years. He allowed me to witness a handful of kids get understanding the truth and more importantly accepting and trusting the truth. I've danced and sang countless songs with their actions. Jesus to the Rescue is by far still one of my favorite theme song.
And here I am serving on staff another year but this year it's different. I don't know if it's because I'm older now or I've done this ministry for years but this year I didn't know if vbs was something I wanted to do. I will admit last year was a big discouragement that shook me but I felt like vbs was moving away from what it was suppose to be about, the gospel. I witness through the years how vbs started to be the "cool" thing ppl did and joined so they didn't feel left out. It seemed like the staff were thinking about each other than the lost souls that were entering the doors. It felt more like a big production rather than sharing the good news. Did I become calouse towards vbs? I think so and I was struggling with if I wanted to still serve.
I remembered one thing my friend told me long time ago when I was part of the youth ministry, "don't just complain about it, do something to change it." So with much prayer and pondering about this summer and talking to various ppl I considered doing something about it rather than just sitting back and complaining. But I wasn't sure how excited I would be when vbs came. I asked to be an assistant and went from there.
I was faithful to the ministry, did my homework, when to the meetings and fundraiser but I still didn't know how my heart would be. Then God showed me and in the most gentle and loving way. He took me away for 7 days from all the preparation, planning, decoration, and 2 actual days during vbs. I thought being away wouldn't make me feel anything for this ministry I wasn't sure I wanted. He knew what I needed and it wasn't to be Not on staff. I was missing home and vbs prep. I was wishing to be there the first day seeing and hearing the kids excitement as they learn the new theme and see the puppets. I yearned to get to know the kids my class to be intentional and hopefully help them see Jesus.
Although vbs may have changed with staff and students, I see and hear the gospel being proclaimed and I need to know and believe that God uses imperfect beings for an eternal purpose. So many years God has been glorified for a week during the summer. Jesus has been proclaimed and prayerfully kids will be saved. I need to stay focus with what really matters and do my part for the gospel. I don't know when God will take me out of this ministry but it is His choice and timing to do so...not mine.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
We have come to the end of #barrettsinHawaii2014 and honestly I'm ready to go home. I love being on vacation with my family but let's just say the key word for the week was "sanctification." I love being more like Jesus through the different situations He gives us but after 6 days of straight rebukes and sanctifying moments I need a break. I also miss vbs which started today. It's funny because this year I didn't know if I wanted to serve on vbs staff and here I am missing being there and serving. God is awesome, He knows what we need and if He gave me what I wanted "not to serve" He knew I truly didn't want that. Anyway back to our last day, which we thought would be restful and in eventful, turned out to be still restful but eventful.
First we tried Hanauma Bay once again since the girls woke up earlier than normal but as we arrived at 9am the parking lot was full so we drove passed it and ended up at a scenic lookout. And if you know my husband he's a bit adventurous and hates signs that say "no adventure." So him and the girls explored.
Then we headed to Makapu'u Beach Park. Before we went to the beach we wanted to explore the rocks a bit.
The girls started to get hangry so we headed to Cinnamon's Restuarant which was super yummy. They have this Guava Chiffon Pancake that's killer. After lunch we decided to give Hanauma Bay another shot since it was on the way home and Praise Jesus the parking lot was open. So we finally explored, played, and snorkeled at the one place we tried three times to go to.
That's the girls near a sleeping sea lion.
It was a beautiful day and we ended the day with dinner at the one place I fell in love with when we came two years ago, thanks Tibayan 3 for showing us this place.
At Uncle's Market and Grill.
So this concludes our trip in Hawaii the girls are sleeping now, hubby is showering and I need to finish packing for our flight tomorrow. It's amazing how undeserving ppl like us get to enjoy so much of God and His blessings. Living in LA we don't get to see too much of God's creation but when we do...it blows my mind to know that He created this and yet He is mindful of me. We get home late Tuesday then VBS for the week then repack for our last mini vacation with our community family then school. Wow where did summer go.
Monday, July 28, 2014
We wanted to surprise our girls by going to Aulani Disney Resort and have the Character buffet, so last night I reserved out spot for dinner told the girls we had a surprise and went to bed. At about 4:30am I realized that the character buffet was only for the breakfast buffet so I had to cancel our reservation but sadly all the breakfast spots were taken. I didn't know what to do and I didn't want to tell the girls we didn't have a surprise.
7:00am comes around and my baby girl jumps on our bed and tells me how she woke up early because she couldn't wait to see their surprise from us. Oh my heart melted...what can I say to her. How can I disappoint her? So I turned to hubby who was still sleeping and asked "let's just go to Dole Plantation and ride on the train?" My girls love the train. So we decided to drive over there even though that wasn't on out agenda and guess what...the girls loved it.
We came here two years ago but the girls were only 3 years old and 20 months so they didn't really remember anything. So to them it was their first visit.
We decided to team up and compete against each other to see who can get all stamps and finish the maze. Of course hubby and K won, I got a bit lost.
Then we went on the Pineapple Express.
Of course we had to end the day at the beach. This is Kohola Lagoon, right outside of Aulani. It was a nice and calm beach but a bit crowded.
For Frances, playing whale (I think).
So far God has been blessing us above and beyond.
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Another day of exploring the island. We wanted to go to Hanauma Bay again but unfortunately it was full (maybe it was unfortunate after all) because we decided to head Turtle Bay instead.
Here's a view near Hanauma Bay.
Turtle Bay was a time of looking for shells and animals and not so much for playing in the water. Right when we got to the beach S spotted a big turtle chilling near the shore. He blended with the rocks but we spotted him but sadly I wasn't fast enough to take a picture. Hubby headed out to snorkel while us girls stayed on shore.
Shells, small but not in pieces.
The little dot in the water is hubby seeing turtles and cool fishes.
Us girls saw a lot of little fishes near the shore and crabs.
We got over the beach quickly because it was a hot day and both me and hubby are red. Praise God that the girls didn't get burned. So we headed to the famous Place which honestly is overrated and over priced.
The little shows were cool and entertaining. Our girls enjoyed the dancing and the hula. Here is the canoe presentation that show cases all the islands.
Getting a fresh coconut to drink and eat is always a plus.
The different island activities were ok. I do think those activities are not worth the expensive entrance fee.
(Yes he can be Derek's Reyes twin brother)
But the island buffet and the luau (which didn't feel like a luau but a big production show) was not worth the $260 we dropped to spend a 4-5 hour day here. We couldn't even take pictures during the show and honestly it was boring and long. They did have a story line which was ok but it was way too long and it ended around 9:30 and if you have a hotel in Waikiki then it's like a 1.5 hour drive back.
More importantly it's a Mormon facility. So the $$ that we spent goes to the Mormon community and to their mission. I wasn't too happy about that, if we knew beforehand this fact that they leave out then we wouldn't have given money to them to be able to further their cause. So spread the word to those who plan on going so they know where their money is going too.